Monday, 11 April 2016

Silent Cry

We met  her ,at the  start of the  year while on a  leisurely stroll  in  a   very remote Rajasthan village one late evening.  It was  only  half an hour  since we witnessed an amazing sunset from a hill top and by the time  we came to this part of the road it was nearly dark . The   glow of   lamps emanating  from the scattered huts on both sides  of the road filled  the atmosphere with serenity and warmth.  As we got closer, her bright red and yellow saree with sequences all over, appeared sparkling  and the bangles on her hands tingled when she walked.. But she was crying.  Her weeping came out as a  mismatch to the ambiance that we were trying to absorb . The village guide translated. She happened to be   just one of many sorrows deeply buried under this seemingly peaceful village.  Her husband had  again hit her under the influence of alcohol and it was a regular issue for the past  20 yrs , started not long  after her marriage to this man. There were marks on her hand and  a red swelling on her face  and  to  my remark on why she is suffering and living with him ,the village guide replied   .”in our culture once married you can’t leave no matter what happens and she has to accept that this as her destiny”.. .

Back , here in Sydney  a month ago   while talking to a friend she said . “ he hit her again and what can she do.. After all  he is her husband “My friend was referring to an educated Malayali woman who works here .  I thought what is the difference after all between that illiterate rural Rajasthani woman and this educated Sydney Malayali woman when it comes to domestic violence, …

A friend while discussing this issue, said “  The most important reason that a woman won’t leave a violent relationship is her fear of the unknown”….the  fear of the unknown of the world out there which Is not familiar to her . the fear of what happens to her children once she leaves, the fear of how society will view her ,,the fear of how she will live without a male support…,the endless fear of unknowns…In her life she  now knows how to live with someone who abuses   her ,  she knows the influences the abuser has on her, the control he exerts on her life, and this in a  way has given  her a comfort zone, even though her comfort zone is least comfortable as  it colors her daily life with different form of  abuse, …

A common response that  I hear from  friends and family   is telling the victim to  continue the relationship  for the sake of her children . But is she really  doing a favour to their children by keeping the marriage in place  ?  Ever thought what might be the impact of this   violence on these silent , forgotten , unintended victims called  children ?  Research has suggested that there is high possibility that the children may exhibit  attitude and behaviour which reflect their own experience of being witness to violence in their home to justify their own use of  violence . Also it is a sad reality that   boys who witness domestic violence are more likely to approve of violence in  their adult intimate relationship.

 I still remember the call I received a year ago from an Indian  girl aged 25  . She rang me after a Facebook friend of mine suggested her to ring me.. Within a few months  here in Australia  her husband started beating her. She didn’t know anyone here nor  the system . One day when he threatened to  kill her she ran away . When she  rang  me, she was in a women’s shelter which supports victims of domestic violence . She told me that after every beating ,  the next morning her husband  would be very apologetic and  promise her that he would never repeat it  ,only to repeat it all over again when he gets home  later that night .  She choose to believe him, hoping he would change one day..

The Social pride, feeling of guilt and concern for her children   often force the woman to be  a silent victim which encourages  the perpetrator to continue the behavior the way he likes...Thus spiritual retreats and prayer programs have become the only venue which most victims seek for help.  It indeed supports but  this support alone is not complete if the victim chooses to ignore the fact  that her partner/ husband who  beats her is psychologically sick and needs  professional help.

Let us all not forget that we have a  choice …a choice to stay in an abusive relationship , or a choice to separate from an abusive relationship…even a choice to take a small separation to get  things into perspective .What ever the choice is ,the first step is to seek help . There are professional people and services around and  everyone here  has the option to accept help. I think this is the biggest difference between my poor Rajasthani woman and the  educated Malayali  woman  in Sydney, that the Sydney woman has choice to accept help for the sake of her children, her own wellbeing and dignity.

Let me tell you dear friend out there , please  do not  be afraid of change, afraid of the unknown, you are holding on to your emotions too long fearing that you will collapse if u let it go, but you won’t . Every change is leading to a new beginning and never forget “  your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change “

 

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